Choosing

I missed blogging. I've been away for sooooooo long that even I thought my blog was already dead. As usual, I'm always busy that perhaps everyone is tired of hearing this "excuse". Work and other commitments have left me with little time to spare for reading, blogging, hanging out with my family, and other things. And because I thought I could juggle everything, I held on because I knew I was pursuing two of my passions--I'm a writer and that's what I do for a living, and I get to sing in a choir thanks to my love of music.

However, I'm not a superhuman. My energy has its limits, and I don't have 26 hours a day to finish all the things that I have to do. Increasing demands both at work and at my choir led me to choose. Even if I'm saddened by it, I had to let go of singing in the choir so I could focus on my job. But choosing is part of life; sometimes, we just have to make tough decisions and we have to let go of something, even if it's our passion.

Since leaving my choir, I got to focus more on my writing. I got to spend more time planning my articles and writing them. If I needed to spend more time working, which means having to catch the last trip of the train going home, I could do so without worrying about rehearsals I would miss. And I wouldn't want to burden my choir, too, with the uncertainty of my attendance because of my unpredictable schedule at the office.

Maybe my life as a choir member is over for now. I don't know when I would have the chance to sing again, or IF I would ever have the chance to sing again. Whatever lies ahead in my musical life, only God knows that, and I'll always be thankful to Him for giving me an opportunity to sing for Him, even if, I'm not sure, that opportunity was handed to me just once in my lifetime.